I don't have any friends, only thing I have is depression and lately sth like anhedonia.
Depression from so many years, and no friend for many years too.
People from my school think that I'm happy because I'm smiling and sometimes telling jokes.
But just not true. When I'm with people I act like I'm happy but I really feel like I'm crying. At home I'm crying one, two or three times per day. Also I feel physical pain, because I have many disorders.
I'm alone but I always was. People always talking about their friends, childhood. I don't want to tell them that I was bullied for ten years. I'm very shy person. People says that I look like s